Re: [BardonPraxis] Re: Will and willpower

["Regulus Magus" <RegulusMagus@...>]

Dear Julia:

Thank you so much! I appreciate the help that you and the other respondents 
have offered. Ironically, just as I had reached the point of maximum 
discouragement, I had a small breakthrough. During my practice session 
yesterday evening I believe that (at last) I was actually able to passively 
observe my thoughts. In the hope that my subjective impressions might be of 
assistance to other students, here is what it felt like:

My self-awareness (for me, it feels as if it is located in the middle of my 
head) became very still. Then it "relaxed" (this felt like unclenching a 
muscle). Then, in a strange way, my awareness seemed to become "transparent" 
(physical sensations, images, thought dialog, and so on seemed to pass through 
my awareness without interacting with it). There was also a change in my sense 
of time (the practice session seemed to pass in an instant). 

There was one odd side-effect. When I opened my eyes at the end of my practice 
session I had to struggle a little to come out of the "passive observation" 
state. For a few seconds I was looking around the room and seeing furniture etc 
and my brain wasn't interpreting what I saw (i.e., if you look at a chair in a 
normal state of consciousness you sort of say to yourself "that's a big green 
chair." In this case that almost subconscious recognition and naming of objects 
wasn't happening for a brief time after my practice session). It was a little 
disorienting but it faded quickly as my normal state of consciousness 
reasserted itself.

Thanks again for your input and goodwill!

Sincerely, /RM/
----- Original Message ----- 
From: jcsz1 <jcsz1@...> 
To: BardonPraxis@yahoogroups.com 
Sent: Thursday, January 23, 2003 7:48 AM
Subject: [BardonPraxis] Re: Will and willpower


Hello RM,

There is a link here you might like to look at to get some ideas on 
how to perk up your interest with the exercises.

http://www.lava.net/~pagios/brief2.html

I think they're good to complement the Bardon exercises (obviously 
not to replace them). 

Julia


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