Iterations

["newbieonekenhobby" <newbieonekenhobby@...>]

Contrary to Peter, who seems to "integrate" the techniques quite 
quickly, I now find myself almost "obliged" to re-start everything 
back to *level 1*, including all exercices I had gone through 
successfully before, because I feel the urge to re-work the same 
things from different angles and axises.

I was myself surprised of this mental U-turn (...the first reason of 
my surprise was that I cannot wait being at level 4), but something 
in me "knew", and let know quite curtly that I had to integrate new 
notions or dimensions I had started acquiring during the 
first "iteration", and that not doing so would imply meaningless 
future development. 
Things start getting a density I did not suspect before, and 
seemingly neutral tools (thought control e.g.) are more than what 
they just "look". It's not scary - I was just "made aware" of it.

I don't want to elaborate any further, but here is my question : 
does this mean that something in me tries to also "sabotage" the 
pace of my progress by going through a loop (like the "buzz" of the 
other student), or should I accept this inner feeling, even if it 
implies some delays in my progress ?

Funny enough, I found some benefits writing down the components of 
those fuzzy things I had to integrate in this re-work, as elements 
(!) I had to acknowledge and recognize before restarting the work. 
Type of "Ok son. Let's make things clear. Do you *really* want to go 
that route given a-b-c ? If yes, you have to understand the reach of 
all this."

Bizarre, I'm telling you :-)

Many thanks
Newbie