Re: transition to step two?

["David Yeh" <ldreamr@...>]

Hi,

I would have to agree with most of what you're saying. But I feel 
that you are addressing a quite different issue than the one I was 
addressing. I brought up the example of discomfort at meals with my 
family when I was younger not to talk about the petty tyrants in my 
life, but rather to illustrate my point that my past affects my 
present in subtle and not-so-subtle ways. Knowing that is only one 
part of changing it.

So in particular, your statement:
> Try not identifying with them as you. They are feelings. They are 
not you. 

That may be true, but the feelings stem from beliefs that I hold, for 
better or for worse, as a result of certain past experiences, which I 
must needs deal with because they bring about certain behaviors or 
mental habits that prevent me from progressing. So in a sense you're 
right, but I guess I have to take a deep look at all of why I resist 
myself so much. Like digging up the roots of a tree, I suppose.

Thanks for your comments though. Many times in my life I have found 
myself in a difficult situation with people whom I don't respect who 
are nevertheless in positions of arbitrary power over me, or 
situations in which I've given power away and feel helpless. Those 
are always difficult to get through, but I totally agree, the most 
difficult situations are the ones with the most opportunity for 
growth and self-awareness.

Doesn't make it easy or simple though. :)


Thanks,
David


--- In BardonPraxis@yahoogroups.com, "lux xul" <luxxul@h...> wrote:
> Greetings.
> 
> I would like to suggest a modification of attitude that may help. 
Tyrants 
> are blessings waiting to be received.
> 
> >
> Personally I believe that the most potentially profitable persons 
in our 
> life OR situations in our life are where we must internally modify 
ourselves 
> to respond to a tyrant or tyrannical situation.
> 
> If I *know* why I am doing something (why I am submitting my time 
or energy 
> or opinions, etc. (ie What is my INTENT.) to some tyrant or 
tyrannical 
> situation, then I may get bruised, broken, insulted, etc. 
(wonderful for the 
> soul mirror BTW..). Bruises heal... breaks mend, insults are more 
about me 
> than the tyrant, etc.
> 
> ex. Staying in a job where you are unhappy for as long as you need 
to get 
> what you need on your resume to move on or mature where it does not 
effect 
> you anymore and you realise you may find JOY (not necessarily 
happiness - 
> unsure about definition) anywhere you desire to, even there.
> 
> In the end, *my intent* is made manifest and I depart knowing I was 
master 
> of my choices at all times, even **when I believed** that the 
**tyrant 
> believed** that they controlled. If I could put aside my ego and 
false self 
> importance long enough to recall *my intent* for being there, then 
once 
> again, I didnt need a *reflection of their belief to convince me* 
of my own 
> intent or strength or "reason d'etre".
> 
> I would submit to you that "Personalities" must have reflections to 
feel 
> satisfied that they have accomplished something (ie - it must be 
seen and 
> aknowledged by others mainly to be accepted as a fact in the 
personalities 
> expereince). My "whole self" perhaps does not ( I dont believe it 
does... 
> consider One Pointedness experiences) and the subtle is supposed to 
rule the 
> gross.
> 
> Its not about grasping power from something as much as it is about 
moving 
> out of the way so that power may manifest through you without 
corruption.
> 
> 
> 
> 
> >It seems that I need to tackle these feelings, otherwise I won't be
> >able to progress.
> >
> >
> >David
> 
> Try not identifying with them as you. They are feelings. They are 
not you. 
> (IIH step 1A)
> 
> Perhaps your understanding (childlike level w/o words emotionally 
that 
> influences us all hidden and without a name - metaphorically 
speaking) could 
> profit from a understanding that you choose no matter what and that 
you 
> cannot escape the consequence of your choices... (once this is an 
accepted 
> fact in the person (i think) there is little room for obvious 
resentment) -> 
> thus the rebelliousness feelings b/c your personlity emotively does 
not 
> question that someone else is taking power over you and reacts 
without your 
> conscious awareness that it is reacting in incomplete understanding.
> 
> Perhaps Power is always granted, never taken. Power over self, 
inner choices 
> and attitudes, not physical conditions is the area I speak of.
> 
> ONce again, I ramble and my personality is witness. :)
> 
> Thank you.
> 
> With respect ,
> 
> :T:
>