RE: [BardonPraxis] Progress and obstacles

["lux xul" <luxxul@...>]

Yes. Ignore it.

It COULD be a temptation of self-importance along the theme of "I am 
becoming SO spiritual.." in reflection back to you to tempt you again to 
note "How DIFFERENT you are.. Special.. etc.".

This is PERHAPS a normal attempt to experience some type of phenomena 
associated with your 'effort' towards what you may consider as a 'spiritual' 
focus.

The possible truer motivation that needs to be attended to... THIS is what 
is being evaded with getting your attention elsewhere on conflicts, 
personalities, reflections of dfferences, etc.


> From: Allen Kray <sourceport@...>
> Reply-To: BardonPraxis@yahoogroups.com
> To: BardonPraxis@yahoogroups.com
> Subject: [BardonPraxis] Progress and obstacles
> Date: Thu, 19 Feb 2004 06:03:41 -0800 (PST)

> I have noticed lately the more successful I am in
> practice, the more negative circumstances are being
> generated. People appear to be more aggressive and
> angry towards me.
=== Phenomena sought to make something special to you and ABOUT you. You 
challenging your own possible doubt in your own determination as well as 
your belief. You want to prove you will succeed and desire an adversary to 
externalise your own self doubt/insecurity. You are fighting your own 
personality level conflict WITH ONE tool of your personality.. 
externalisation and denial.
=== Every candle flame reveals a shadow.

> It is as if forces are trying their
> best to get me to quit or break my focus. Sometimes it
> almost seems as if it is a test to see if I am really
> comprehending the exercises.
=== Yes. You probably have. The forces are you or parts of you.

> Perhaps these things were
> always there and I have simply now become more
> conscious.
=== You speak the truth and sense the truth.
> Any tips to share for this part of the path? It sure
> isn't easy...
=== 1. Read above
=== 2. Stop judging its ease or difficulty and simply detatch from either 
feeling or idea as well as detatching from the lust to succeed. Try not to 
measure, especially unconsciously from outside yourself in.
=== 3. Continue in the exercises w/o attachment to the results. Do the work. 
Cant dance when you're watching yourself and making sure you're dancing. 
Just dance. The work gets done when we're not in the way of the work getting 
done.
> Sincerely,
> Allen Kray
=== Ritual/Rite will not fill your heart. Meditation will not fill your 
heart. "Spiritual" practice should not be misconstrued as "being spiritual'. 
Spirituality has little to do with 'psychism' and 'phenomena' so often 
sought in the practices of seeking a spiritual relationship. We, I believe 
(correct me if Im incorrect, Rawn) are working with the personality level in 
these first steps.. not necessarily being spiritual or special. Just working 
and sweating the proverbial brow.

Thank you.
With respect,
:T:

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